Somebody that I really didn't expect, called me yesterday. I didn't answer my mobile, nor did I return the call. I couldn't. His 'missed call' took me by surprise and raised up all kinds of feelings, and none of them good. I didn't answer because I know I can't be anything but polite when I really want to tell him off and I didn't call him back because I have absolutely nothing to say to him. His phone calls are always the same: he goes on and on with his stuff and problems and I notice he never asks about my life. Not that I can be bothered to tell him, but it just shows the nature of this guy. He has an ego that doesn't allow itself to be recognised. There are so many nasty things I'd love to say to him, but I think the only person I'd be tearing up would be myself. It's not worth it.

Saw another friend over the weekend. Now this is a sad case. She and I have known each other since 1991 and have been good friends for yonks! But last year she joined a motivational group, got sucked in then tried to get everyone in her orbit to follow. I've never been a 'groupie' in anything. And I felt that she was making it her life mission to get me into the group. 'Don't you want to be the best person you can be?' she said, thinking I'd recognise how awful I'm and proceed to dump several thousand dollars for others to make me feel good. Nearly every conversation we had, she slyly slipped it in. Talk about being pressured into doing something you don't want to do!! I began avoiding her because of her constant harping about this group and she just devoted more and more time to them. Which is fine...only, she let our friendship suffer too. So much for nearly 11 years of dinners, movies, long phone calls, emails, Christmases, birthdays, parties, shopping etc. When I bumped into her, it was all so superficial and distant. And at the end of the painful chat, it went something like, "Ok, got to go. See you." By the both of us.

Someone once sent me an email that explained the nature of friends. Some friends you have for a reason, some you have for a season and if you're lucky, there are a few friends you have for a lifetime. I had a friend in him for a reason and she was a friend for a season. Despite everything, I'm grateful for the experiences I've had with and through each one of them. The season is over and the reason has faded. I'm moving on.

I'm in the midst of having my office space/room 'feng shui-sised' by my relentless mom. She bought this little fengshui handbook and has been pointing out things I should and should not do or have. Especially this picture of Murphy, my dog, on a shelf. Then I read that same little handbook, people who are dragons or tigers are able to withstand having a wild animal in their presence. So Murphy stays. Yup...I'm sceptical...not to mention suspicious. Will hanging bells on my door improve my sales or just serve to wake me up every time the wind blows? I'm not exactly sure what's next but if my office space is suddenly flooded with money plants, I'll scream!

On the Lent Menu: Today's lunch was simple Chinese peanut porridge with fried doughsticks. No breakfast. Then dinner was rice crackers with cheese and jam and a glass of milk.

It's that time of year again...no, not tax season but Lent. Tomorrow is Ash Wednesday for Catholics. A time of fasting and abstinence. And as usual, I'm asked, "So, what are you giving up for Lent?" My usually glib answer is dessert, a favourite food, movies or something desirable and fun. It never works. I succumb to tempation or worse, forget! This year will be different. This time, I pledge to only eat meat once a week. So I've got about 6 weeks and 3 days till Easter to see how this goes. Keep you posted.

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It's been awhile...but I've not had the 'steam' to write, nor anything worth writing about. The last few weeks have been rather 'ho-hum' with work and clients taking up most of my energy. So yesterday, I decided to treat myself to another manicure and pedicure session at Poppi. Lovely!! Almost dozed off.

Was reading an article in January's Her World which had a quote I like - "It's worth waiting for a soul-mate then ending up with a cell-mate". So true!! I cherish the hope of finding my 'other half' some day. You know what they say about soul-mates. They were one soul who was cleaved in two before birth and each are destined to search for the other throughout their lives, never being totally happy till they are reunited and are whole.

AND...I'm finally on Blogger and posting through the web instead of slogging through Dreamweaver. All thanks to that angel, Wendee! *Clap*Clap*Clap*

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